Ignoring your own inner voice can have some pretty interesting results- some quite undesirable as I previously experienced.
I’d like to say that I’m pretty good at listening to my inner voice and intuition but there are times when I truly just let my ego take over. I’m sure that I’m not alone here….. Right? Please agree or I might have to cry 🙂
A couple of months ago my Hair Goddess had to cancel my hair appointment because she fell ill. I was so devastated because I was looking like a mix between a shaggy dog and someone who was stuck in the 80’s trying to rock a mullet! Screen Shot 2014-05-09 at 4.02.18 PMPretty sure those mullets are not trending right now. Oh and of course I was devastated for my Hair Goddess because she was feeling so ill (I’m not totally heartless!).
I ended up having to travel out of town so I thought while I was there I’d check out a local spa to see if I could get my hair cut and coloured. As soon as I walked in I felt ‘uncomfortable’. I couldn’t explain it at the time but I truly wanted to turn around and walk out the door, but I was desperate to have my hair done.
As I sat there waiting for the hairstylist to greet me every part of my body was telling me to get up and walk out. Instead of listening to this feeling or ‘inner voice’ I just brushed it off and blamed it on the fact that I was having a bad day (some other icky things had happened that day that are irrelevant to this story).
I kept this tiny voice in my head saying ‘get up and walk out- get up and walk out!’, but I wouldn’t – I started to rationalize that it would be rude to walk out when I had an actual appointment booked.
The longer I sat there waiting the stronger the feeling came, and the harder I tried to push it away.
Finally the hairstylist came to get me. She was this adorable 20 year old who I thought must know all of the cutting edge techniques of styling, cutting and colouring. WRONG!
After picking out a colour for the streak in my hair she started questioning (out loud) how to go about actually colouring my hair. ‘Hmmmmm- I thought. This might not be good. But just go with it- trust her!’
The whole time I was there I could see the other stylists looking at me a bit funny, and even though this little voice in my head was questioning their stares I kept telling myself everything was ok!
Over 2/3’s of the way into the appointment I realized that I really wasn’t comfortable because this was NOT a good idea! So as she was cutting my hair I asked her to stop! I told her that I didn’t want her to finish. I have pretty short hair and if someone makes a mistake- you might as well be bald! Not that there’s anything wrong with bald. I’m actually quite partial to it but I have no desire to see what shape my head is.
When my hair was finally dried I saw the results and I was pretty horrified! It was not the colour that I wanted- not even close. The roots were bright pink, the middle part was black, blonde, pink while the ends were a fuchsia. I was mortified and I was angry!
Let’s just say that our meeting didn’t end well, and we both walked away upset.
In hindsight there are many reasons why I was angry but the biggest one- I didn’t listen to my own inner voice. It was telling me to leave- to go, to walk out regardless of what others would think. But I pushed it away, I slammed it down, I punched it in the face and tried my best to KO it. Even as I write this it makes me sad…. my inner voice was telling me something gently and lovingly and I treated it like a piece of dirt.
In those moments I was so unloving to myself that it hurts to write this post. However, it was a lesson that I needed to have. This was a moment of growth for me, a moment of expansion!
I’m now doing my best to stop, breath and listen to that beautiful soft voice. To nurture it and grow from it.
Your inner voice is so important- it will never steer you wrong. It is there for your best interest. So don’t ignore it. You don’t want to end up with really bad pink hair! Do you??!
To learn more about deciphering between your inner voice and ego check out my short YouTube video.
PS- I have nothing against pink hair. I love rocking’ a new awesome colour but this just didn’t quite cut it for me.
PPS- I am not writing this post to complain about a service that I felt was done poorly- I am blogging about an experience that I had to learn. The hairstylist was a really great teacher for this particular lesson- so for that I am thankful
PPPS- don’t ever cheat on your Hair Goddess! They seem to have this really funny karma thing going on! Scary
Calgary Canada Life Coach Arianne Moore-Armstrong, founder of Path of Tranquility Coaching for Women, helps clients worldwide. Arianne is also the founder of the Ultimate Belief Breakthrough Methodâ„¢