How I moved into my authentic Self.
Being my authentic self was not something that came easily to me. With this being my first blog post I thought I’d talk about how I came to be the person that I am today and being authentic is a big part of that. My goal with this blog in it’s entirety is to share my life’s journey, from the past and present, so that you can relate to some of the situations that you find yourself in, and be assured that you’re not alone! So let’s begin this journey together shall we?
Where to start? Right- Authentic. Ok, so I honestly didn’t grow up thinking ” My life’s ambition is to learn how to deal and work with the stresses of life- all the while being my authentic self!’. What! Adolescents don’t think that way, and if you did, well you’re an anomoly and I totally congratulate you on that. I however, was not that way. When I was younger I never felt like happiness was an option. I felt like I was in survival mode all of the time, I felt completely alone and scared. Many situations happened to create this dynamic within myself, and the result was that I was so scared to let anyone get too close to me for fear that they would leave me, or even worse that they’d find out that I was a bad person and not want anything to do with me. How crazy is that right!?
When I was in my late 20’s I had this edge about me- not a good one either. I was still being driven by the fear that I’d end up alone so I always had this chip on my shoulder as a defence mechanism. Yet within all of that fear I had moments where I knew I felt something different, something completely opposite of fear. Those moments were calm, peaceful. I had no idea what was happening but deep down somewhere I knew that I wanted more of it- I longed for those moments of stillness within. Then in the next breathe the abrasive side of me would come out- I seriously thought I was having a breakdown of some sort. What was really happening was a break-through!
When I turned 30 I started to recognize that those ‘moments of stillness’ were who I was truly meant to BE! Those were moments where my authentic Self wrapped me up in a cozy blanket and rocked me back and forth in peace. The moments of anger, fear, sadness, anxiety and overwhelm were truly not a part of me as a living Soul. I started to understand that those moments were not authentically mine and I could choose to NOT have them or engage in them in any way. (Yay me!)
I started to understand that living in fear, doubt, limiting beliefs, and high stress levels were not how I was supposed to live. As a person walking on this earth I had a divine right to be happy and experience joy. So my journey continues daily with creating the life that I was meant to live- being authentic. Do I have moments of fear, doubt and a bit of edginess sometimes? You bet, because I am only human and those moments are human experiences. But the really awesome part is that I take so much awareness out of those moments and I use them to grow. It’s not an easy journey but being my authentic Self is the most wonderful gift that I give to myself daily.
Calgary Canada Life Coach Arianne Moore, founder of Path of Tranquility Life Coaching for Women, helps clients worldwide.